It always seems like summers go by in such a blur don't they? Ever since I was young it's been like this! Time flies when you're having fun sure, but it's a different kind of flying during the warm months. I wonder if climates that have same temperature year round experience this type of time warp... Anywhooo, to quickly update everyone about my summer so far, it's been pretty awesome for the most part. I've been getting lots of beach time, nature time, and whaddya know, even some social interaction! If you've been keeping up with my Thursday videos, I try to document as much as I can. Last week however, was pretty darn frustrating. I was planning on joining my big sister and her family in London to help out with my little nephew a bit. Sounds awesome right? Alas, out of the freakin blue, a week and a half before I was supposed to fly out, I got an email from a casting agency I use to work for YEARS ago about a gig worth a couple thousand dollars. Why must two great things in my life simultaneously coincide while other times I'm bored for weeks at a time? Is this adulthood??
Facing this dilemma, I consulted a bit with my sister, and ultimately decided to say and go to the casting at least, and if I didn't get picked I'd go to London. Turns out, I DID get a call back! Needless to say, I called off the trip and stayed to risk it all for this one day job that would pay my rent for a few months. The casting itself deserves it's own blog post, so I'll probably talk about my thoughts on that at a later date, but long story short, a few days go by of waiting for a response... Nothing! I didn't get the job. Now, a few things on that whole process in general; how come when people KNOW you won't get picked, they don't tell you on the spot? Also, how come they don't tell you AT ALL? It's like that for job interviews sometimes too. You just have to wait and wait until you come to a conclusion that you must NOT have gotten chosen. It's all malarkey! The whole rejection process really cuts me deep, but I do have a few mechanisms to cope. One of the main soothers of my emotional pain is the rationalization that the specific opportunity I've been rejected from just wasn't the right opportunity for me.
The reason we build things up so much in our heads sometimes is because we don't think there is anything else, or anything better. We want to pounce on chances that look good, because we don't know when the next opportunity will be. Sometimes it feels like patience is a luxury that we just can't afford though, right? We are made to feel like the world, and our lives, work on some kind of schedule that we must stick to. When things begin to deviate from the schedule, we freak out and patience goes out the window. Perhaps in some way I feel like my modeling days are starting to be numbered, and I can't afford to wait around for other jobs like this to appear out of thin air. Some women feel the same way with kids and marriage. Will there come a time when it will be too late to achieve the things we want in life? Are we waiting in vain?
Being patient is super hard, don't get me wrong, but just maybe, it's good that we wait for the stars to align for our goals and dreams. I saw a great quote on Instagram somewhere, not sure who said it originally, "You can't rush something that you want to last forever". What a great thing to keep in mind! In today's culture of instant gratification, we want everything now, instantly. Little do we realize, the quicker something may come, the quicker it may go as well. Rome wasn't built in a day y'all. Just because I didn't get this one awesome job, doesn't mean there isn't a a bigger, better one... Or even a lifetime contract with a major corporation...my own corporation!
We shouldn't be afraid to wait for the things we truly want. We shouldn't be afraid of missing out on something good, because with patience we could have something great. Sometimes it's much better to wait for the right thing to come along rather than try and force yourself into something that we THINK is right. While out this weekend for a friend's birthday, I also heard something that sparked a related thought. She was talking about the pressure from her family to "settle down" the older she gets. She then made a brilliant connection that the root word of that phrase is "settle". What people are really saying when they say "settle down" is to "settle" period! Being patient and appreciating the process in life is a hard thing to do, don't get me wrong. I think meditation and calming exercises usually help me out. For some reason, I'm a much more calm/zen person than I use to be I the past. Patience just so happens to be a wonderful side effect. One that I wish more people would embrace. How do you feel about being patient? Is it really a virtue? If not, what is? Let me know your thoughts on the subject, and as always, thank for taking the patience to read!
P.s. Seriously though, sometimes it really does feel like nobody in this world has much patience. Almost every time I fly somewhere, and the gate agent calls the first section to sit, EVERYBODY gets up. Like dang, can y'all wait a darn minute for them to call your section? We all gettin to the same place at the same time, sheesh.
P.p.s. While I do hate when others are late, I am unfortunate late every ONCE in a blue moon. I heard that saying "thank you for waiting" rather than "sorry I was late" makes people feel a little better. I gotta try that out next blue moon!
P.p.p.s. They say good things come to those who wait, so here I am, waiting. This however is the longest self study I've done yet!