I may have touched on this before in previous blogs, perhaps long ago, but for those of you who don't know, there was a time in my life where I use to have déjà vu quite often (for some reason though, I can't find any references pertaining to such writings when I search the site, possibly because I spelled it wrong every time I wrote it, but that's neither here nor there). As a young kid, you don't know how to describe such occurrences other than, 'this thing has happened already'. Taking it one step further, in years after my initial frequent feelings of familiarity, I started to think that I might even just be straight up psychic (sometimes I still kinda do, but not as much as I use to... seeing as though I have yet to hit the mega millions jackpot). I would have this really strong feeling about the outcome of certain situations, and then what do ya know, my premonitions would turn out to be true! Now you tell me that's not psychic! Anywho, in trying to further investigate my preternatural powers, I started to look at it a bit more pragmatically. This, in turn, lead me to think that maybe I'm just really in tune with my instincts!
Now, in all my years of writing these blogs, I can't believe I have yet to dive into the science of instinct. It's grown to be one of my favorite qualities about myself! Trust is such a hard thing to gain in every area of life, and certainly with other people, but do we ever think about the trust we have to put in ourselves? How do we have even know that we are making the right decisions in life? is it a feeling we get? A tingle? What is that little nudge that sways our decision-making skills in either direction? Those are our instincts people. For some of us, it's much harder to fully put all of our faith in ourselves alone. This is why we often seek advice from friends and family among a slew of many other outside influential sources. It all really seems to be because we don't fully trust our instincts.
Last week my therapist (was out on vacation, but the week before that) began to dig into my past a bit. I'm not sure how we got to the subject, but I started to tell her the story of what made me quit my previous job at the hotel/restaurant I was working for. I told her it was a very quick decision I made to leave, and that I didn't even think about the outcome, I just did it on the spot. She asked me if I made these type of life-changing rash decisions all the time. I thought about it a bit and realized I did the same thing when deciding to move to NYC in the first place. I got $300 for my birthday and immediately bought a one-way ticket to the east coast... without even thinking. She asked me if I ever regretted any of these very big choices, and I didn't even have to think about my answer... no! I'm not trying to even say I have no regrets in life period (because actually, I haven't really sat down to think about the answer to THAT), but when it comes to certain things, my impulsivity is so pressing that I don't even think about the alternatives at all.
I'm sure we've all heard of the phrase, "trust your first instinct", but do we ever really do just that? It's definitely something I've had to work on over the years, but in pretty much every instance, I've never really regretted the path I decided to take. This isn't to say that the first instinct is in fact always the right answer though. Back in my pseudo psychic days, I'd get so overly confident in my abilities, that I'd rely on my instinct alone, sometimes disregarding actual critical thinking. I've since learned a bit more to not use instinct as a crutch, using it to be lazy when I don't wanna use my brain.
It's hard sometimes when we're faced with two alternate paths that could possibly alter our entire future, I get it! Especially when both choices are good things... or bad things. But let me tell you something that always puts a fire under my butt whenever I feel stuck; sometimes when faced with a decision, if a choice isn't made soon enough, the choice will be made for you. Not the catchiest of quotes, but the information is gold. Sometimes our intuition can feel like such a clear answer while other times it just an inkling, only we can decipher these feelings. It may seem discouraging whenever we feel like we may have chosen the wrong thing, but one has to wonder if we'd feel the same if we had chosen the opposite. There are so many paths and subpaths that lead to even more paths, to the point where the possibilities of how each of our lives could have or can turn out are infinitely endless. We'd go insane investigating each and every possibility. Like, literally insane. I believe that this is why we have our intuition. Our gut saves us a lot of extra worry time that we can never get back. Some of us, however, will worry regardless, but learning to have more faith in ourselves can help tremendously. We don't give ourselves nearly enough credit! Anywho, as always, let me know your thoughts. Do you weigh your options back and forth until you're blue in the face, or do you go with the feeling in your bones?
P.s. This post was indeed inspired by a really hard decision I had to make this past week. Fortunately, both of the things were good things. Great things even! But alas, I had to sacrifice one for the other, which sucked! And my intuition was for sure the deciding factor. How come the 2 great things had to happen the same darn week though??
P.p.s. Did anybody ever watch "That's So Raven"? The psychic show on the Disney channel? That show was my jam! I thought it was so me!
P.p.p.s. I'm really good with people instincts too. I usually know if I'll get along with a person at first glance! (ofcourse every now and then I'm wrong, but I'm only human!)