I’m not sure exactly why, but I’ve been having quite a lot of epiphanies lately. I think I’m getting closer and closer to figuring out just what it all really means! Or maybe it’s like that magical number infinity... you can get really really close, but you’ll never reach it. One thing I did over this past week was start up a new Instagram page (like I needed another one right? I already had 4!) for all of my crochet/ knitting projects. I did this as to not clutter up my main page so much and cater more towards those who are actually interested in this specific thing that I’m interested in. This bring my total up to 3 Instagram accounts in regular rotation (the ones that the public knows about... everybody has their secret stalker accounts, don’t act like ya don’t). You’d think this would be enough, but I actually started thinking about all the OTHER spin off accounts I could make in addition; one for food, one for shoe pictures, one for selfies only, one for videos, the list goes on! Why can’t I ever focus on one darn thing at a time??
Things brings me to my epiphany. Perhaps one of the reasons why I keep moving on to new thing after new thing, constantly searching for my next venture or project, is because I’m not exactly sure which one will be the ONE. The one that takes off, catches on like wildfire, and makes everyone excited and want to engage. As long as I’ve been living on this earth, I will have yet to find that thing... so I’m still trying EVERYthing. Perhaps. I’m sure there is a degree of me just liking to constantly do new stuff as well, but the other realization is totally plausible. Have I even truly found my calling in life yet? What if I haven’t? It seems as though I have to keep searching until I do.
Another aspect of my wanting to do everything might possibly stem from the sheer fact that overstimulation seems to be the key to success in today’s society. (Is it just me, or do I use the term “today’s society” a lot? I sound like an old ranting crank sometimes.). This past weekend, I went to the House of Yes for another one of their parties. They had so much going on up in there and I thought to myself... is one thing at a time ever enough? Are perfectly executed arealist routines by ladies swinging half naked from the ceiling not enough for our entertainment? Do we need to have a beautiful live quartet accompaniment too? Am “I” ever going to be enough JUST writing? Will I have to incorporate all the frills I can to constantly keep people’s interests?
I mentioned this a bit in the last blog post as well about friendship and how hard it is to manage our “free time” to see people, but I suppose even in that regard, I feel as though sometimes just little ole cranky me isn’t enough for some folks. Me being an amazing person and friend isn’t really enough. I must also be available, accessible, and in an ideal world, have some food and refreshments in the fridge for guests. The world may never know if any of these things are truly the case.
At this point, I’m not sure if I’ll ever find that ONE thing that I’m meant to do. My purpose in life. Maybe some of us are meant to have more than one. The thing is, perfecting each one to where we’re actually GOOD at it. Going back to the aerialists for a minute, those girls, I’m sure, have been practicing specifically doing that for many many years to get to an expert level. It’s hard for anyone to split attention so equally and fairly amongst so many different passions, but I do believe that the human brain, spirit, and body have the capabilities! We use so little of all of our skills that we’ve come to believe that we can’t do it all. The more we practice and use a muscle the stronger it becomes. I will be sure to keep you updated on the journey! Let me know your thoughts on the subject. Do you think doing one thing is enough? Is it possible to do more than one at an expert level?
P.s. The title of today’s blog is actually the name of my new Instagram page, so go check it out!
P.p.s. I’ve always been fascinated by EGOT winners. In my mind, I really think I could be one of those!
P.p.p.s. Stay tuned for my other epiphanies in my next post!