I did it everyone! I made it to my birthday! And if I may just say, it wasn't nearly as stressful as I previously imagined it to be. It was actually quite lovely! The day before, I sort of just gave into the wave crashing over me instead of trying to go against it (I heard that's what you're supposed to do when you go swimming as well). The celebration was pretty low-key, which I appreciated. It was a very smooth transition. I don't even know why I was freaking out so much. I knew in my heart of hearts that I WOULD make it. I knew it would all be FINE. But there is something inside of us that builds up certain milestones to be a much greater (overwhelming) force than they actually are. We often overlook the fact that humans are extremely resilient. We can handle a lot more than we think we can!
Today's quote comes from a particularly strange place if I do say so myself. There is a show on Netflix that I love, which just released its third season. The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt I've realized is super feminist but has an underlying tone of resilience. In the first season, there is an episode in which Kimmy is trying to console the lady she works for, Mrs. Voorhees. Mrs. Voorhees is going through a tough time in her marriage and she's basically falling apart emotionally. Kimmy reassures her that when she was going through a tough time as a kidnapping victim, she told herself that "people can stand just about anything for 10-seconds". After you make it through the first 10-second interval, you start on a new 10-seconds. At first glance, yes it's quite ridiculous, but upon further contemplation, I find it to be a very interesting theory. 10 seconds seems like almost nothing in comparison to the grand scheme of time. Placing a very attainable milestone of making it through a measly 10 seconds of something difficult that we don't think we can bear, does somehow seem much more doable.
When I look back over my long long life, I often reminisce about the arduous times that I didn't think I would make it through to the other side of. There are certain events I thought I would never get over, barriers I thought I would never overcome, lights at the ends of tunnels I would never see. But look at me now. I HAVE overcome all of it. It's difficult to see solid ground when you're in the middle of turbulence, but the ground is always there. Just think about it for a second. Perhaps there was a time when some of you thought you'd never finish all those years of school. Maybe you thought you'd never get over that breakup from the 'love of your life'. Maybe you cut all your hair off and you thought it would never grow back and be short forever. Look at you now though! If you are still in one of these situations, just know that there IS light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can't see it just yet. One day you'll look back on all the things you were once stressing about and have a nice hearty laugh.
I know that this time of year, there are also a lot of graduations happening. I remember being in 9th grade like it was yesterday. I even remember what I wore on my first day of school! It was a long sleeve red and white shirt with 3 flowers in the middle. My hair was in a ponytail. My first ever homeroom was room 525. All of the kids were so loud, and I didn't know a single person. It was extremely nerve wrecking. Just to think, I had 4 long years of this! 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, an average of about 36 weeks a year, for 4 freakin' years! Sure it all seems a bit unbearable when you think about it in those terms. But now when I look back, it all seems to have gone by in a flash! A brief moment in time that is now just a memory. Spending most of my life in school, I appreciated all of my hard work finishing just that much more. Finally graduating made me feel like a stronger individual because of everything I'd endured.
If you do happen to currently be going through a particularly stressful time in your life, I want to tell you right now that it WILL all be fine eventually. Maybe even before you know it. With my birthday, or something like a graduation, there is a specific end date, but sometimes it won't be so specific, and that can be tough. However, one day you'll look up and realize that you've made it past the point you were worried that you couldn't, and you will be that much stronger for it. Time is a very perspective entity. It can feel long and actually be short in retrospect, or just the opposite. It is what WE make it. Yes, we do have that power! Learn to use it, manipulate it, harness it, whatever you can to make your life happy and carefree. In times of extreme doubt, use that 10-second rule. Trust me, you can do it!
P.s. I really do want to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday this year, and especially thank you to all those who came out to celebrate and make my special day extra special. Thank youuuuu! For those who didn't, you're dead to me! Juuust kidding! :)
P.p.s. Little known Bretony Boheme fact, the credits color scheme for Kimmy Schmidt was actually the inspiration for this website's color scheme. Bold and bright! I also have to say that Titus is the real star of this show. He is gold!
P.p.p.s. One of my presents this year was a sewing machine! Stay tuned for more creations coming soon to the creative commons section!