Hello there everyone! My oh my what a week I've had. My youngest sister (who actually DOESN'T read my blog) came to New York City to stay with me for a week. If anybody out there has a younger sister, I'm sure you are with me when I say that I can only handle being around her for so long before she starts to drive me nuts. But she does leave tomorrow, so I'm sure I can handle one more day. Her being here so far has been many things...mostly exhausting! I've taken her out every single night she's been here so far. I'm actually just now getting home from being out Sunday night (It is currently 1pm)! Another thing that is has been is very eye opening. Obviously your family can usually be a reflection of the person you are. We are the products of the same environment. We have a bit of the same nature, as well as a bit of the same nurture. Apparently we do look alike, and also I heard from Ashleigh that we have a few of the same mannerisms (and dancing styles... but OBVIOUSLY I'm better). I do in fact think my youngest sister and me have a few personality traits in common as well. However, I'm beginning to wonder if I was ever as bad as she was attitude-wise. I literally took this little girl to the finest of restaurants, bars, lounges, and clubs. She barely had to pay for a thing since she's been here. I've introduced her to a bunch of my super cool and awesome friends too, but it still seems under appreciated. I'd like to think that I'm trying a SMIDGE to extend some sort of proverbial olive branch. Maybe some people are just stuck in their ways. Maybe I'm just a little more aware of the world and the way it works since I'm a little bit older. Welp, maybe someday she will look back on all of this and realize how she comes off to society. Maybe one day she'll even read my blog!
One of the things that this whole sister situation makes me realize is that, I'm on a mission to become totally self-aware. I would like to know how I appear in the eyes of another. I want to be in touch with my specific personality and own it. But I also want that personality to be totally in line with all of my morals and core values. I know that people will always perceive the outward actions of others differently, but as long as I know that I'm the same way across the board, I can be comfortable with whatever anyone may interpret. As a very general rule of thumb, I do want to be a good person. I really really do. And I do unfortunately know that sometimes I can be a little bit like my sister, more so in the past, and that kinda scares me! I have deduced that probably the best thing I can do is lead by example for now. Nobody is gonna wanna listen to advice from a boring older sister! But by actually showing people that there is a better way, we can sort of trick them into "listening" to our advice.
Probably the worst thing in life is to not know how you are yourself. It is true what they say that it's much easier to see the faults in others than it is to see in ourselves. MUCH easier, trust me. I remember a blog post a while back where I described a few of my undesirable traits, including laziness, bitchy-ness, lack of compassion, etc. Writing them down and actually looking at them makes it simpler to work on changing. In addition, hearing your bad habits from someone who you know and trust is a good road to self-awareness. If you do have a friend out there like this, have an open honest discussion one day. Get everything out there. Perhaps a lot of the things that you tell each other will already be known, but it's nothing like hearing it out loud.
We should all strive each and everyday to be just a little bit better of a person, inside and out. Knowledge really is power. The power can be given to us through awareness. Think about it people, if you were walking around all day with a tiny little piece of hair sticking up in the back of your head, you'd wanna know about it right? If we don't know it's there, we'll be looking like a fool for the rest of the day! People we don't really know won't want to say anything to us about it. They feel as if it isn't really their place. When a friend or family member finally tells you of the out of place lock of hair, you get the chance to fix it! If it get's out of place again, I'm sure they will remind you again. Frankly, it's much better to know than to be in the dark.
If ever I am doing something that goes against the kind of person I want to be, I surely want to know, so don't be afraid to tell me! I've decided to let little sister see the life I'm living and want to understand the changes that she does or doesn't need to make for herself. Just like with anyone else! I never want to be the one to tell people what to do, how to live, what is right or what is wrong. We all have to be the individual judges of that. That is why I write this blog. It is a mere way to open up your own eyes to realize (see, the title DOES make sense now) life and the world around us for yourself.
p.s. I actually took a nap half way through writing this blog, so it's now almost 5pm haha. Seriously though, the times we've gotten home this week are as follows: 4am, 4am, 6am, 8am, and noon! This week was a series of naps.
p.p.s. That's one reason I hate "How to" books sometimes. People telling me what to do! What makes a person think they know what they're talking about enough to write a book telling millions of people how to live their life? Just give tips of things that have worked for YOU personally, or keep it pushing!
p.p.p.s. Yes, my sister is super annoying, but we did have fun almost every night. Even did karaoke (I mean, obviously).