It's funny how presently, the problems of the past seem so powerless. The details, blurry. They can become increasingly insignificant as time passes, but in the eye of the hurricane, I'm sure it's hard to imagine being on solid ground again. I've come to realize that perspective plays a HUGE part in the different degrees of worry that people may have at a particular time. Sort of like a glass half full, glass half empty kind of thing, but instead of optimism and pessimism specifically, I feel it's more, little picture vs. big picture. I know I'm being super aloof right now, but allow me to explain what provoked me to write on this particular subject...
So I know I'm usually a beaming ray of sunshine and all things positive, but this month in particular has been kind of rough. Financially rough. I actually really do hate money, and would like to never use it again, but unfortunately, it is a concept that is here to stay. Most of you know that I don't have a "real" job. This is true, but don't get me wrong, I do have creative odds and ends endeavors that have gotten me through paying rent. It has been working for me so far, and I can keep doing my writing and working on becoming my own boss. However, I must admit, there are times, such as this month, where I honestly don't know how the heck I'm gonna have enough money to live off of! And yes, I know, people may think I'm a little nuts...too much of a hippie who needs to get a job...who needs to save money for times like this...blah. And yes, sometimes, dare I say it... I worry! Yes, even little ole me. It's one emotion that I never really like to admit I have. I like to be the breezy, go with the flow, "everything will work out" type person, ya know? And usually, I really am. I'm around a lot of people who DO worry everyday, so I feel as though I can be the one to balance all of that out. But being around all of that worry...has got me thinking, should I worry too?
Even though I do admit to brief bouts or concern, I also must say that it quickly passes. I suppose I posses something that can almost immediately get me through all of my worry. Faith. That's right people. I'm not sure why really, but I have a tremendous amount of faith. As well as confidence! Yeap, those are the 2 things that have consistently gotten me through any doubts I ever have about myself or any problem. In my heart of hearts, I just know that somehow everything will work out. The flow chart above, I saw while scrolling Instagram in the middle of the night. I was awake because every time I laid down, my nose would get super clogged and I couldn't breathe. Then I would try to breathe through my mouth and my lips would get super chapped and my throat would get super dry. On top of all that, Mercedes, my cat, was running around like a lunatic. It was terrible! Anywho, so this is when I came upon the photo above. Do I have a problem? Yes, I can't sleep because I can't breathe when I lie down and my cat is driving me nuts. Can you do something about it? Not really. Then don't worry!
I know right! How can I NOT worry in the face of all these problems beyond my control?? Seems like such a weird concept to grasp! But it is absolutely true for every problem in life. Much, much easier said than done. Worrying has become a part of our normal human life. Worry then in turn provokes stress. Stress leads to a number of diseases, which ironically cause more stress! It's a terrible cycle that can be nipped in the bud early on by trying not to worry so much about things. If you have a problem and can do something about it, by all means, go do it! What the heck are you waiting on? If the problem is beyond your control or out of your hands, once you've done everything you possibly can do, just ride out the storm and don't worry! In my particular case, there is probably something I COULD do to be a little more financially secure every month, and avoid having to come up with $1500 in 10 days (get a stupid job). This is where the faith part comes in... I'm not too worried because I have faith in myself. Faith in making a living doing what I love. Faith that even through the rough times, I can see the big picture and how it will all work out if I stick to my plan.
See if this chart can help in any of your current problems. Let me know if it doesn't as well! As far as this month goes, I have a few ideas on working it out. Instead of worrying, I can put that energy into being proactive and doing something about it. It's a huge goal, but I'm always up to the challenge!
p.s. I really do think we should eliminate money and go back to trading stuff... but that's another blog for another day!
p.p.s. Being worry free, I have come to realize, is actually a complete lifestyle change. It won't happen over night. It has taken me a very long time to get to this point of zen. I could tell you so many stories about young Bretony circa 2004/2005. I was a mess of inconsequential worrying!
p.p.p.s. I don't really smoke weed, but I have heard this to be a HUGE worry reliever....