Hello everyone, and thank you for joining me for yet another week of rampant ramblings. As you all know, I just got back from visiting my home town of Detroit. A very eye opening experience as usual. My niece and nephew are growing up so fast! My niece even has her own make up line and cotton candy making company in the works. It's good that I got a chance to see my family, even though whenever I do go back to Detroit, there isn't enough time to usually see anyone. Next time, all my friends just need to have a party in my honor so everyone will be in one place (take notes friends).
One thing I do try to always make time for while I'm in Detroit is going over my dad's house and scavenging for my old stuff (mostly old notebooks, photos, and videos). I stumbled upon a great treasure of a production entitled "The Real World: Detroit", which hopefully my dad will convert for me since I (or anyone) no longer have access to a VHS player. This time, since I was driving, I actually got to bring some of my stuff back with me! I brought back about 10 or so of my old notebooks, ranging from elementary school to college. Very interesting to see my writing development over the years. Everything from my overall grammar and spelling (which is still pretty eh, but it's a work in progress!), to my general thought process. Of all the things I wrote, I will share with you one thing that I found a bit unsettling. A direct quote from an ancient bretony scribe read,
"I would be mad if I was a white person with frizzy tangled hair. Having straight manageable hair is the only good thing about being white."
Sigh. Poor confused light skinned girls man. I mean hey, I wrote it, so it's time to divulge and analyze! I usually don't like to talk about racial issues at all in my writings; my public writings atleast. It is far to vast a topic, with far too many interpretations and perceptions based feelings and emotions... which I am terrible at identifying! I like to mainly listen while everyone talks. However, today in honor of Martin Luther King Jr. and the strides he made in trying to actually unify people, I will discuss my childhood perceptions of the world.
Growing up in the city that I did, I now realize how limited my view of the world was. I was brought up in an area and time that made me think that there was some eternal rivalry between every black and white person. EVERYTHING was either black or white actually. I saw no other races for quite some time. I had a lot of preconceived notions about white people in general. There notions were all embedded in my brain from such a young age, that even though despite trying to expand my mind more and more as I grow older, I sometimes I can't help myself but to STILL fall back into choosing a side in the eternal rivalry. I actually don't know what to think sometimes. It seems as though there is some sort of unspoken competition going on between every race. Who is the best at this, who has the best that, etc. It's actually NOT a competition. But we are always being put up against one another. If I know one thing about this particular era, I know for a fact that we love to compare things. One thing can't be good without another being worse. I saw a youtube video a long time ago titled "Why Girls Hate Each Other". It was a VERY good video, so you should watch it... right now.
This isn't just why GIRLS hate each other. It's about why EVERYONE hates EVERYONE. From birth, we are ALL put in competition with one another...to judge one another. Life aint a courtroom! It really pains me to see that people don't wanna focus on making themselves better for themselves as oppose to wondering why society doesn't think they are better than another person.
The only competition I want to be in is with myself from yesterday. Yes Bretony from Sunday, I'm better than you! Everybody else in the world? Who the heck cares! Everybody is going to obviously think they are better than some and worse than some. We can't control people's minds. Some people will always have hate in their hearts, so technically, racism will always be around. But the good news is, some people will always have love in their hearts too, so the entire world isn't COMPLETELY doomed to the fiery pits of Hades. As I said earlier in the blog, this subject is far too complex for me to say everything I need to say in one sitting, but please comment your thoughts ( I know people have opinions about this, it's basically all I see on social media).
I really appreciate Martin Luther King Jr. for working to make this country a little bit more livable for those who were being blatantly treated different because of the way they looked. And surprisingly, he did it all through love, not hate. Which was probably really hard to do! It really does take a lot to remain calm and peaceful when faced with so much evil. Zenning yourself out and helping others to see a more ethical point of view CAN help make change. We should all take notes from the life of MLK. And I'm sorry white people for saying the only good thing about you is your straight hair... how rude of me!! The first step is always acknowledging the problem, so I'm glad I can see how wrong that was. Sheesh, I suppose I was always super angsty about my hair huh?
p.s. I use the term "black and white" in this blog merely because it is more recognizable. actually though, most of us are some sort of brown or tan type of situation. The world is so extremist that we have to go all the way to opposite ends of the spectrum to identify folks.
p.p.s. Little known Bretony fact, my elementary school was on Martin Luther King Jr. Blvd.!
p.p.p.s I also said a number of other questionable things in some of my notebooks. This is one of those rare times when I realize that getting older is actually a very very good thing!