Jeez Louise, this year has really been going by at lightening speed! It's almost August for crying out loud! I can't believe it's been almost 8 months since I went semi-off the grid and quit all my jobs to fully dive into this convoluted business venture of mine. I do however think I need to start re-strategizing some aspects, and think of how I'm going to continue making this more profitable and beneficial. There are a few projects in my head, currently formulating, that I need to start putting in motion. It's just very hard for me to focus on time management. Next thing I get for the business will be an assistant (inquire within)!
This past week, I actually ventured out to one of my old jobs in the depths of the Hamptons (like a day after I got back from Virginia... am I ever at home anymore?) It was surely a trip down memory lane, as well as a firm confirmation that I really have to NOT work for anyone ever again. Once you get a taste of the things that you love in life, you never ever wanna go back to the way things use to be! Life is all about progression. Even in the game life, which my niece and nephew made me play at the crack of dawn when I visited them in Detroit last month (and they made me be the banker -_-), you do not go backwards! You may have a choice in different paths, but never to go back a space. That's not an option in the game, and it's true for real life as well. When I moved to NYC, I didn't look back at all. No matter how stressful things got here, moving back home was never an option for me. There are a lot of friends I have today that STILL have their parents to fall back on. Which is nice, don't get me wrong, but it's still a cushion of doubtfulness for success.
When I finally began the process of getting my own apartment in 2013, I was fully aware of the prices on a typical NYC dwelling. Astronomical! I was also fully aware of my current salary at the time. Minuscule! But it didn't really stop me from wanting what I wanted. The best! I always told myself that once I actually got the apartment, no matter how much the rent was, I'd find a way to pay it each month because I didn't wanna go back to couch surfing. And guess what, almost 2 years later, I'm still in the apartment! I made it work by any means necessary in order to not digress. Where there is a will, there is definitely a way. Some people have called what I do "living beyond my means"... but what does that even mean really? Technically it means, spending more money than one can afford. But also, TECHNICALLY, if we are spending money, that means that we have the money in the first place (I know, I know, crazy Bretony logic). I don't really think I live beyond my means though. I never thought of it like that. I feel as though, everyday I try to better my life. It's not like I'm driving a ferrari to the Prada store before dinner at the Ritz Carlton or something, but I do strive to keep the things that I like around, and the things that I don't like at bay. All I need is one foot in the door! I'll crack the sucker wide open (my feet are pretty strong).
Getting back to the whole work thing, as of now, I'm not really making the revenue that I need to sustain what some may call, "a life", and I know I have spoken about going back to an actual clock in/clock out job, but the truth is, I can't go back to the slavery! I have to make this work somehow. My foot is already kind of in the door. I have all the time necessary to figure it out. I live in the most resourceful city in the world, I can absolutely make something work. The point of this week's blog is not to say quit all your jobs and go live a random hippy lifestyle, but simply, once you find something that you love in life, do anything you can to hold on to it...don't let it go! Don't go back to the crap you were use to. This could even be so for relationships. If you ever find yourself with someone who makes you happy all the time, treats you like gold, and loves you for you...as opposed to all the suckers who treated you like dirt, cheated on you and made you feel insignificant, hold on to that person! And even if the good relationship you are in fades out, just know that is the new standard for everyone else you date. Don't go back to losers, because you've seen how good things could actually be for you.
I will say this, I don't live TOTALLY live beyond my means. Even though I don't work for anybody, I still do random gigs or events for income pretty often (still not working for anyone though! All freelance), and I also have rented out a space in my apartment as you know. So I have had to make SOME compromises, but the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is my motivation. Eventually, I will be traveling to many more places, sharing my stories from around the world... expanding my writings to reach as far as the eyes, and ears can see and hear. I have tasted the sweet freedom of writing, traveling, and sharing my experiences for a living, and I cannot let that go people. I just can't!
Last week when I was in Virginia, I got a chance to talk to my good pal Milly, who also has some secret blog that she tells no one about! I was reading one of her posts about her recent trips to Dubai and China, and how she got upgraded to a business class flight (go read it if you have a chance, very funny). Now, I've never flown in business class before (never really crossed an ocean before, so I suppose I never really needed to), but she made it seem like heaven on earth...Fully flat reclining seats, champagne, steaks! She mentioned that she never wanted to fly economy class again. Once you get a taste of the high life, it's hard to imagine how you managed anything less. Let the taste of steak motivate you to never eat another packet of ramen! No matter how far fetched things may seem, they are actually much more within reach than you may think if you just have a little faith in yourself.
p.s. I've known Milly for a few years now, and If anybody knows how to travel fabulously on a budget (besides me of course), she is DEFINITELY the one. This girl goes freakin' everywhere! Since I've known her, she has been to Puerto Rico, Spain, London, France, China, and Dubai (that I can recall). She really needs to start some sort of travel agency ...
p.p.s. Even though I don't have a real job, guess what I have starting August 1st?? Health Insurance baby! Physician, dentist, eye doctor here I come!
p.p.p.s. I actually may be going on a random international excursion this weekend, can anyone guess where?