Disney Princess New Years Iphone Watergate

Hello everyone! Happy freakin New Year!  I hope the year has been good to you all so far.  Cherish these first few days, because the darn years seem to go by faster and faster!  My New Year was kind of eh....  I don't know who the heck goes out to party hard a day BEFORE New Years Eve, but that's exactly what my crazy self did.  I ended up dropping my iphone in a toilet full of water... and pee :(

So yeap, before my NYE was even finalized, I had no way of formulating any type of plans with anyone.  Also, I don't wanna sound so into myself, but I probably missed a bunch of happy new years texts too! (or who knows, maybe I didn't.... hardly anybody wished me a merry christmas :/ )
On top of all this, I was feeling absolutely hungover all day!  I even threw up, which I never ever do.  Gosh it was pretty terrible.  I'm sure I will look back at all this and laugh one day...in the far far future...

So yea, I have been without a phone since NYE.  It's actually not THAT bad.  To tell you the truth, sometimes I wanna throw my phone in the toilet anyway.  But WILLINGLY ya know? It was just a bit ill timed.  Being without a phone is very liberating to a degree.  I actually suggest it for a week.  See how it goes and let me know!

New Year's Day was a bit better I suppose.  Some major detox was involved.  Also a trip to the movies!  I went to go see the movie "Into the Woods", which I had no idea of what it was about, only that my boo Meryl Streep was the leading lady.  I didn't even know it was a musical....I LOVE musicals!  I also didn't know that it was produced by Disney.  Overall, I liked the movie.  However, as the story unfolded, one thing became eerily apparent.  Nobody in the movie had a mother!  They all freakin' died!  Like seriously, every single one of the mothers in the story were either already dead, dying, or died during the movie.  What's up with that!?

I have actually heard of the whole motherless Disney princess thing.  Apparently Disney's mother died in some freak gas leak after he bought her a new house.  After the death, I suppose he was never the same.  HOWEVER, Walt has been long dead before some of these movies even came out!  Perhaps they wanted to keep his sadness alive? Who the heck knows. The movie just made me think a little bit...

As some of you may know, I lost my mom in 2011 on Father's Day.  I don't really ever talk about it.  Even some people who DO know me don't know.  Obviously it has affected me. But, I'm still not sure I've actually ever really dealt with it completely.  Every time I'm faced with like blatant mother loss in the media or anything, it always makes me think about it a bit.  It's only been like 3 and a half years, which I suppose is still pretty recent.  I mean, in compared to my whole life, her being gone only 3 years is practically like yesterday.  So why is it that I haven't really dealt with it?  Is it because I don't talk about it?  Is it because I still don't believe it's real?  I mean, before she died, I hadn't seen her for almost 2 years because I live in NYC and I didn't visit for holidays because I had no money.  Her physical presence wasn't really fresh in my mind.  Also I suppose I could always just think she's not here so she's just back in Michigan and not gone forever.  It's overall just a weird concept.  And the thing is, it wasn't like she was even really sick, it was an all of a sudden type of thing.  It threw me off, and probably helped contribute to the fact that it's a bit unbelievable even still.

In a lot of ways I am like my mom.  She even had her own show too!  It was called "New Generation" and it was on public access.  That is where I got my first taste of the limelight.  Dad, if you are reading this, can you hurry up and upload some New Generation episodes to youtube?  I know you have nothing else to do!  She also was in a singing group called "New Love" with my dad and oldest sister (upload that too dad).  In addition to all of that, she wrote all the time.  She published a poem book called "Each New Day".  She was a teacher for a bunch of different subjects (most hilariously Spanish...seeing that she wasn't a native Spanish speaker, nor was she fluent...but she managed to teach it somehow!)  On top of all of this, she believed in me a lot.  I still have a birthday card she gave me the year that she died.  She drew a picture of me behind a desk that said "Bretony Movie Studios". (It's actually Bretony Productions Inc. mom)

I know she would want me to fulfill that legacy.  And I know now more than ever, I finally am beginning to make it all happen.  After the death of Disney's mom, of course he was depressed, and it reflected in his work, but he also became totally super successful in spite of it all.

There is still always a happy ending for the motherless Disney princess....

P.s. If any of my readers has lost a parent, please share with me options of opening up more or dealing with the loss.  I need some help! Psychologists are too expensive and they can't prescribe the good drugs : /

P.p.s While typing this blog, I simultaneously unlocked an old AT&T phone I had lying around.  So yay I have a phone again! Send me those belated Happy New Years texts people!